SuperSponge is more like it
Passion plays out in mysterious ways, so when you think of me, try not to judge. Instead, try to place Martin Scorcese in the same thought. I heard him say in an interview once that he used to tape tinfoil over his apartment windows so he could watch movies day and night. Now, of course, he’s a successful filmmaker and I’m not, but we’re talking about passion here; not success. And I did take the two layers of blankets off the big living room window when I heard that Torie’s James (aka “Tom”) was coming over. The handtowel is still tacked over the little arched window in the door, though; I didn’t think he’d notice that.
As it turned out, he and Torie snuggled on the loveseat while I took over the main couch and we all watched Buffy until Torie and I fell asleep at 9p, and James went home. Jesse watched the earlier episodes in the other room. I beg you: when you think of us, please try to remember Mr. Scorcese, and have pity.
Then if you’re still in the pity mode, you can toss a little more my way when you hear how my very own mind conspired against me this weekend. I had a headache all day Saturday; I mean a bad one; a coming-up-a-migraine one; which seriously bit into my enjoyment of Buffy, blanketed windows notwithstanding. It wasn’t until Sunday morning that I happened to look at the label on my newish package of Starbucks Verona and discover that I’d inadvertently bought decaf. By that time I figured I’d already gone through the worst of withdrawal and, because I’d been feeling tired and draggy and like crap for quite awhile, I decided to stay off caffeine altogether. So, although I’m still tired and draggy, I feel healthier about it. Which makes no sense, but you’re used to that when you come over here, so that’s okay. It is okay, right?
I feel like I’m sinking. I really miss Scott. I’m forgetting things; I can’t keep up. I cry nearly every day, at least a little. Sometimes I don’t wash my face before I go to bed, and everybody knows what a nono that is. Superwoman I’m not. I can’t even aspire to Supergirl. Which is probably why lately I’m all, “Kick some ass, Buffy, and for the love of God, let Spike love you.”
Don’t worry about me; I’ll be okay. Yesterday I took the kids shopping and we had a great afternoon, and hey, today I got dressed again and plan to do some housework here in a minute! That’s gotta be good for a little hope! Have a great day, friends. kiss xo
Vital addendum: I don’t want to know if Buffy lets Spike love her; I’ll find out eventually. When I’ve sailed my way through season seven to the series’ end, we can talk about it ’til the Undead lurch home. Thank you, sweet things.
February 27th, 2006 08:59
First! I think…
Poor Kelly - accidentally going cold turkey on caffeine must be HORRIBLE. I’m usually a one (STRONG) cup person per day myself but without it, I’m like the antichrist.
About Buffy and Spike - I’m saying nowt.
I went through my time without the Beloved when I lived in Scotland and he was in Dublin and it was AWFUL. I missed Fence so badly too. Between the pair of them and the miserable stress of my Masters, I ended up a depressed insomniac! The application of DVDs seriously helps though. I used to watch movies endlessly because when I was watching, I wasn’t missing and crying. Keep it up. And hang in there - he’ll be back soon and you’ll wish he would stop getting in your way all the time…
xxx
February 27th, 2006 09:23
Quitting caffeine is hard enough, but quitting it on accident, well that is just unfair. I don’t ever want to hear you say that you are not Wonder Woman again, do you hear? You think Wonder Woman doesn’t cry? Hellllooo. She wears spandex every day of her life. She cries, believe you me.
I’m going to need some more of that soup, Kel. I have a full-on cold trying to break-a-my-stride.
Happy Monday, my friend.
February 27th, 2006 09:27
quit anything except caffeine. I think oxygen may go before caffeine. I don’t want to be the one to tell you this but my experience with sitting in darkened rooms has not really help my mood in the past. Drink in the daylight. And please have a mucho grande or whatever you order - Gatsby
February 27th, 2006 09:30
Nines, O woman of wisdom. First off, I am going to commit hari-kari if Buffy doesn’t hook up with Spike (in a non-robotic fashion). I’ll then come back from the dead and grab him for myself. I hope Scott doesn’t mind. One for tne daytime, one for the night.
Seriously, I’m glad you told me what you went through in Scotland. Sometimes I think I’m the hugest baby and should just get over it. I remember reading that it’s good to have vices that don’t kill you, i.e. coffee, when you’re in stressful circumstances, so maybe I should jump back on the caffeine cart again. I had a really really good talk with Scott on Saturday, which helped tons, and also made it worse because now I miss him more. And I’m laughing because you’re SO right about what it’ll be like when he’s actually HOME. haha! Never satisfied, that’s meeee!
I feel like a freakin freak today. Oh my God. Like I need to put the blankets back up, make some leaded coffee, break out the chocolates and curl up on the couch in a fetal position to finish season 5. There was the whole you-know-terrible-thing that happened, also, which made me deal with death in general. Boo. xo
February 27th, 2006 09:37
Heathy, you’re so so so good for a laugh. I love you. That spandex is so binding. Do you like fish chowder?, because I was thinking of making that for dinner tonight. I can just chunk everything in the crock pot. If you absolutely hate it, I’ll defrost the chicken. For you. Anything for you.
I’m sorry you’re sick, winky. xo
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Gats, I believe you’re right on both counts. I’m making myself some caffeine right now. It helped immensely to get out yesterday in the sunlight; as I was driving along, listening to Lenny Kravitz sing to me from the front speakers, and to Torie and James’s conversation in the back, I felt unbelievably happy. I go in spurts. But sometimes I need to cave-in, too. I usually know when it’s time to emerge. I keep assuring my kids that I’m going through a phase, but as it turns out, I’m dragging them into Buffy world with me. At least I’m not entirely alone. Plus, I have you guys to encourage me to drink more. Um, coffee…
xo
February 27th, 2006 10:01
Spike is great. Overdone a little in the later seasons, but still great.
I was a bit meh about “his blondiness”, but I’ve been rewatching a few episodes myself and am all spike is great again
February 27th, 2006 10:17
Fencer, how could Spike ever be overdone???
I never saw James Marsters before the show, so I have nothing to compare him to. I didn’t think he was all that attractive when he first showed up, but he has definitely grown on me. Of course, whenever Angel pops up out of nowhere I go, “Ohhh, Angeeelll…” but thank God “whosits” is finally out of the picture. I just did not like him. xo
February 27th, 2006 10:17
Has my heart gone to sleep?
Have the beehives of my dreams
stopped working, the waterwheel
of the mind run dry,
scoops turning empty,
only shadow inside?
No, my heart is not asleep.
It is awake, wide awake.
Not asleep, not dreaming—
its eyes are opened wide
watching distant signals, listening
on the rim of vast silence.
Antonio Machado
February 27th, 2006 10:42
I used to LOVE Spike (ever since School Hard, when I was like, “Hell-oooo!”) and probably would have continued to do so hugely except that his fascinating journey and changing character does take a lot of screen time from my favourite characters. My Xander, my Anya. And I ADORE Angel. He has his own show so lots more time for me to love and appreciate him. Whosits was, is and ever shall be the boringest gobshite EVER. And that terrible thing was terrible, but so beautifully done. Great episode, fab job by SMG but so hard to watch. So hard.
February 27th, 2006 11:06
My weekend can be summed in two words Expensive and Laundry. Expensive because we paid $130 to go see the Globetrotters on Sunday. David and I got to the arena and found out they had played on Saturday. Other than that all I did all weekend was laundry for five people. Wash, hang, dry and fold. I hate laundry. Oh well I guess I got off easy Ruth Ann ironed some Hawaiian shirts (that she had made, of course) for me.
Say hi to Scott for me. David our youngest went out and bought the new Dane Cook CD and DVD last week. For one reason only, so he could send it to Van.
Take care
February 27th, 2006 11:43
FM, what is it about poetry and music that drills down into certain recesses of our soul we’re not even aware we have, until we hear them sung, or written about? That was truly beautiful, and dear God, what I’m feeling. I need to read more poetry. Thank you TONS for sharing that. I won’t call you a tomosexual bastard, okay? Nines might, though, unless you toss some poetry at her. xo
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Nines, I never really liked Anya until recently, and now I adore her to pieces. She reminds me of a friend who used to drive us all crazy because she said exactly what was on her mind, all the time, and in those precise, rather prissyesque tones. But we loved her anyway. She used to come up behind me and push the small of my back, to get me to stand up straight. ha!
Xander is a beefcake, and funnier than ever. I can’t imagine getting sick of Spike, but if you guys did… hm… we’ll see. Also, I just nudged Angel to the top of my Netflix list, to further the fun. I figure this is my winter obsession, and by spring I’ll be into Veronica Mars. ALTHOUGH now I’ve gotten Scott all interested in Buffy… so we may be starting it all over again. Darn.
That episode was unbelievable. Truly beautiful and heartbreaking. It should have been up for an Emmy (though maybe it was and I just wasn’t paying attention). It was kinda a drag, though, because I watched it with Torie and James who weren’t all that into it, not having seen much of the series beforehand, and they kept whispering. URGH. xo
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Roddy, that’s HORRIBLE. You must have wanted to go ballistic. Throwing that much money away, as well as missing something you’d been looking forward to… MAN. And then to have to do laundry on top of it. Poor guy. I hope something really nice happens to you today.
Van is going to KISS David for getting Dane Cook for him. He loves Dane Cook. LOVES him. I want to copy Firefly and Arrested Development for Van, but so far I haven’t found anyone who can burn dvds on their computer, petesakes. So much for my life of crime. xo
February 27th, 2006 13:16
Dear Kelly… dear dear Kelly.
I expected to come here and see a moving tribute to Don Knotts or something and once again, you’re just talking about yourself.
Oh my gosh. I’m SO just kidding.
My neighbors up the street have had bed sheets hanging in their windows for years. I thought it was just a temporary thing when they moved in, but now I see that those bedsheets are their window covering of choice. Maybe they watch too much tv and don’t want us to know, but at least they could go out and buy some freakin’ curtains. Do you not have curtains?
February 27th, 2006 13:37
Pretend it is London during the blitz and get some black out curtains. Then you can watch Buffy all day long while still battling the evil Nazis
February 27th, 2006 14:43
Cath, you made me laugh out loud. Like this, “HAHAHAHAHAHA!” Don Knotts indeedy doo. You’re funny.
Sheets are entirely inadequate for blocking out light, so I doubt they’re using them for tv purposes, though I suppose they do keep people from looking in, maybe to discover porn or something. Curtains are really inexpensive; I mean, the inexpensive kinds are. People don’t really have to use sheets… Goodness. We have curtains, but they’re like this: heavy mossy green velvets on the sides, translucent white sheers in the middle. I could go to the trouble of closing them altogether, but it would mess everything up, as they’re not drapes I can just pull on a string. I should have thought out the decor better. Sheeez. Or, sheeetz… xo
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Fency, I just spent five minutes crying on the couch, and then a good half-hour simply wandering around the house, doing this ‘n that, in a trance. Season Five Finis, and if the entire series ended on this note, I would be satisfied. It was an exemplary season. If it was the only one I bought, it would be enough, and I can’t believe I have season 6 in my hot little hands. I’m almost not ready to start it.
Instead of our stupid, ratty old blue blankets, this time I hung a really pretty quilt that gives a stained-glass effect. It’s actually working to enhance my experience. But I am going to give your suggestion MUCH consideration, as I would love kicking some Nazi butt. (I don’t like Tara. She’d better get better and I mean SOON.) xo
February 27th, 2006 15:11
I like Tara. She’s got many lovely qualities and she’s got that whole “normal girl” thing going on. Of course, I prefer Oz but hey! Give Tara a chance. She’s got such a good heart. Season Five is (imo) the last perfect season of Buffy. Which is not to say seasons six and seven don’t have wonderful highs - just I never felt they had the same continous level of quality of two, three and five. But it’s still better than most other stuff on telly! And I think watching it continously, rather than week by week, probably is an advantage.
And you still have five seasons of wondrous Angel, which, for many of us, actually surpasses Buffy at times!
February 27th, 2006 17:59
Okay, so I don’t have a clue about Buffy or Spike since I’ve never watched the show, but I will tell you that they get together, since that’s what you want to have happen in the end.
We have a “permanent” blanket over our bedroom window because we’ve never found curtains dark enough. So I’m not laughing at all. I’m sure James can’t possibly mind.
February 27th, 2006 21:24
Nines, Tara just seems so slow and awkward, and not that great an actor; okay, normal I guess, but this is television. If I want normal, I can look in the mirror.
BUT, I just heard her sing and like her more now, and besides, whazzup with Willow? Shiver me timbers! I have a feeling Tara will be putting up with a lot from now on.
I LOOOOOVED the musical episode. Oh my. LOVED it. I just finished it and ran in here to see if you were around to talk to about it. Yay! Look who was! (happiness ensues, via the end credits. ha)
Really? You liked Angel more at times? Ooh, I’m so excited! The first three disks should be on their way soon, within a couple days.
Okay, obviously, I’m a total freak. Scott and I both got obsessed like this with X-Files; without him around this time, thank God I have a couple friends to talk to about Buffy. Otherwise I’d internally combust. xo
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Jenns, hi honey! Thank you for the good news, little fibber mcgee you. Or, maybe you’re NOT fibbing after all, but we won’t know until the last episode of the last season completely. I’ll let you know your status then.
James doesn’t even look at the windows; his eyes are on Torie, and he just likes being here. He thinks I’m a “cool” mom because I’m obsessed with Buffy. No kidding. And I decorate like a teenager, though I DID hang my Legolas poster in the garage, at Scott’s behest. (JK, Scott doesn’t care. He’s more teenagery than me. I moved it to make room for my Narnia poster.) xo
February 28th, 2006 05:34
OMWF (the musical episode) is fabtastic isn’t it? My lil sister is a huge fan and will often just watch the video of that episode over and over (I don’t leave the dvds in Sligo so she can’t watch that).
I like Tara. But at the same time I missed Oz. So I think Tara suffered a bit from the “Willow should be with Oz” brigade.
And I’d have to say, that overall I prefered Angel. Angel probably had more poor episodes, but overall I thought it was the better show.
February 28th, 2006 06:24
You moved your LEGOLAS poster to make room for your Narnia poster? What is wrong with you?!!!! We all know that O’Bloom is MUCH better looking than Aslan.
February 28th, 2006 06:38
Ah, once more with feeling! I loved it so much, I bought the CD! Which I will copy and send to you if you’d like to singalonga? Hmmm?
And “this isn’t real, but I just want to feel” - happy now? You may be happier later. Maybe. Maybe not. I’m really saying… nowt!
Angel was a better show overall because it had longer-running arcs, was able to be very dark and had established characters and a broader canvas. It was Deep Space Nine to Buffy’s Next Generation. Plus it had a demon karaoke bar. You can’t go wrong with that!
God, you’re so LUCKY to be seeing all this for the first time. I first saw Buffy as a guilty pleasure in about 1997/8, without the benefit of backstory, internet or interested friends.
February 28th, 2006 08:56
Jenns, but this way, I can secretly give soft kisses to Legolas on the way in from the garage with the laundry. It’d be too obvious if he was in the family room, hanging over the fishtank. Not to mention awkward, trying not to disturb the fish. NOW do you understand?
Actually, my (now framed) Narnia poster is circa 1970, so it’s very, very valuable to me. I bought it when I first got into the book series. Disney was NOT involved this time. I know, shock! xo
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Fence & Nines, I was just talking about how lucky we are with Jess this morning, as we waxed lyrical about some episodes (Jesse’s reeling from the Really Terrible Thing, which he stayed up until 3a to finish.) To be able to move right from one show to the next, without commercials, without WAITING, is incredible. I can’t imagine having to wait a whole week, or even - NOOO - an entire summer to see what comes next! Plus, you’re right, having compatriots makes a HUGE difference.
Season 6 is good so far, especially OMWF(I would love a cd!! Fence has my address… yay!), but I’m beginning to miss moony Spike already. The whole beat-the-shit-out-of-each-other thing feels artificial to me. Sigh. Crap. I suppose I should have expected, after Season 5, that it could only go downhill. But not so downhill I won’t watch it. I still LOVE it. You know.
I can’t imagine Angel being better, but then, he’s the only character I know. Unless Cordelia’s part of the crew…(there was one hint of that earlier).
Wow, Willow’s going into deep, scary places, idn’ she? You were right about this season being darker - mmuch. I’m at her recovering addict stage. Tara’s sweet and all, and it’s not because I liked Oz better that I can’t connect with her; I just can’t. She doesn’t seem to fit in, but then, maybe that’s the intent. Anyway, they all just seem so grown up now - no more innocence. Sigh. I can’t WAIT until Scott gets home so I can get him hooked, too. Mwahaha! xo
February 28th, 2006 10:02
Dark and scary, aye. but I’ll say nowt
Angel is quite different to Buffy. More serious, and more shadings of grey.
February 28th, 2006 10:30
By the way, you inspired me to clean my bathrooms yesterday. My husband thanks you.
February 28th, 2006 10:37
Fence, I love how you guys say “nowt”. Although it frustrates me no end. But yet, doesn’t. And yet again, does.
I think I’ll enjoy plumbing the depths of Angel, so to speak.
I’m ready to quit guitar lessons. My fingers are rebelling. xo
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Kass - HOW in the world… You mean, I - I - inspired you to clean your bathroom?? Wait, let me just troll over my post again to see how that could possibly happen… Was it my miniscule mention of housework? The fact that I haven’t been washing my face every night? Passion? (wait, don’t tell me, please.) Well, I’m glad I could be of some help on the homefront. As if you need it… aren’t you a cleanie anyway?
I KNOW you use your toothbrush for it.
xo
February 28th, 2006 10:56
You can’t give up now Kelly
Fight through the pain, and soon you’ll be strummin along to the likes of we didn’t mean to go to sea
February 28th, 2006 11:09
Kelleela! what is “nowt” anyway? xo
February 28th, 2006 11:29
passioncry, nowt simply means nothing. It is an expression from the North of England.
March 1st, 2006 09:42
Okay, Fence, since you say so. I’ll serenade you all someday with my lightning quick fingerpickin’ and my beautiful voice. I sound exactly like Sinead O’Connor. I’m lying, of course. I’m going to your link…. xo
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Hi Jeans. Fence can teach you about rugby, too. xo