The Dying Gall
Hi babies. I wanted to have a brand-spanking new post up for you; one that would make you laugh, or cry, or throw up on your shoes… I didn’t care. Just anything to to elicit some reaction from you and to go with my fresh look, but instead I ended up launching my new template with an old, used, empty champagne bottle. Are you SICK of reading about the snail yet? Yeah, sorry. At least none of us have to contend with that green anymore. I’m sorry, but some things can no longer be borne. Anyway, I think my new logo makes people think I’m a princess. I think it’s the gold stars.
I’m not sure how often I’ll be back here - maybe every day - maybe every few weeks - I just don’t know. In fact, I’ve been a tad depressed lately. Not bad, but a little… I may even be going insane, but as long as I’m functional that’s okay, as it could be interesting. Creative titans often end up going insane, eating grass, or shooting people from the roofs of tall buildings; it’s usually from something intoxicating like syphilis, but I’m afraid I just have your garden-variety insanity. I don’t own a gun, but I do own plenty of grass - or at least rent it - so you can (probably) rest assured I’ll stick to grass, if anything. Most likely I’ll just keep lying on the couch, reading my book, until I feel better and can think of a story to tell you. If I had the right kind of grass, it’d be easier to make something up, but I don’t, sorry. I just have your garden-variety grass. Does anyone really know what the hell “garden-variety” means?
Quick update: Scott’s in Nantucket, Jesse’s in college, Torie’s in high school, Van’s in Iraq, I’m in the dumps. Scott will be home in a few weeks for another week of vacation, Jesse’s trying to find time to sleep, Torie’s navigating turgid emotional waters without capsizing, Van’s coming home at the end of September, and I’m - mostly - lying on the couch, reading my book. We’re going to make it just fine, I think.
I hope all you sweet peas are doing well. kiss you!
August 18th, 2006 06:43
Love the new streamlined Kelly Well! Sorry you’re depressed, I am sending you some performing dogs to cheer you up. Please don’t shoot them. Oh, you don’t have a gun. Phew…
August 18th, 2006 07:05
Hi Mally. You know I love you, right? I would never shoot you, OR your dogs, even if I had a gun.
Actually, could you send monkeys instead?
August 18th, 2006 07:07
Monkeys with syphilis? haha!
August 18th, 2006 07:22
All my syphilitic monkeys are busy right now. Will a demented ape do?
August 18th, 2006 07:25
As long as he’s surging with creativity, I don’t care HOW he got that way. Also, can he run to the bank for me? I’m busy reading.
August 18th, 2006 08:09
Morning Kelly.
Nothing clever to say. Just tired me, who should be well rested after my summer long vacation in Stars Hollow. But no, I’m sleeping hours on end. And enjoying it. Back to school on Monday. Don’t they know they are really messing with my schedule? How can I possibly be at work at 7 when I sleep til 10?
Glad to hear all is well (or myaybe normal) at your house. Hope you feel better - it’s not fun to be depresseed - or insane. I can send you some of my drugs. For depression, not insanity - just to clarify.
Sorry if I’m rambling - I’m practicing getting up early. It’s 8 am. I’m never gonna make 6 by Monday….
xox
August 18th, 2006 08:14
Oh, I’m so sorry, Karedy, seeing as you have to give up your reading on the couch time, and sleeping-in time…
With your drugs, and Mal’s demented ape, I should be in fine fettle by, say, Sunday afternoon. Awe-some. I hope you find your fettle by Monday morning…. kiss xo
August 18th, 2006 08:16
Good to see you again, Kells!
It has been very long. What books have you been reading?
August 18th, 2006 08:28
Hi Kelly.
Hope you get to feeling better soon. I know those waters well, er, grass in your case.
Like the clean look of the page.
Take care,
Chris
August 18th, 2006 08:37
Hiya Anneee! Nice to see you, too… Let’s see, books. A couple weeks ago I read Jung’s Memories, Dreams and Reflections (excellent!), moved on to Possession, by A.S. Byatt (excellent!), and am now entrenched in Zarathustra’s Sister, a biography about Nietzsche’s sister. After that I’ll read Nietzsche himself; Mal sent me a book of his writings. So, I’m kind of knee-deep in philosophy, and am enjoying myself thoroughly. How about you? kiss
August 18th, 2006 08:39
Hey Chris! How’s the music coming? And thank you for the sympathy… it sucks being down, but thank God it never lasts for long… xo
August 18th, 2006 09:31
Keeeeelllllllyyyyyyy!!!!!
You’re back!
I still have two weeks left of summer, and I’m counting the days. My list of ‘things I’m going to do when the kids go back to school’ is miles long. And I’m not exaggerating. The best thing in that once they’re gone I’ll ignore every item on the list and sit on my butt.
You’re lovely even when you’re depressed and insane. Really. But you might want to comb your hair.
August 18th, 2006 09:55
haha, Cath, there’s no way you could’ve known that I NEVER brush my hair anymore! Well, except before a shower. Seriously; that’s how I keep my lovely waves intact.
Kids here have been in school for AGES now; I can’t believe you still have two weeks left. Of course, our summer starts earlier here. Frankly, I hate this setup. It’s still AUGUST, for the love of all things holy.
Thank you for the support in the face of my adversity. I’m sending you Karen’s drugs, and Mal’s demented ape. xo
August 18th, 2006 09:57
You did this on purpose didn’t you. Coming back when I have no time to comment properly because I’m busy trying to figure out where shelves fit without a measuring tape, and I’m not sure if my foot measurements are accurate!
Gotta go, but loving the noew look. Very web2.0
August 18th, 2006 10:05
IS it that obvious? The web 2.0? sigh. Well, probably only to the Internet Savvy, and Those Who Install Shelves Without Measuring Devices.
I never use tape measures myself. I figure there can NEVER be enough holes in the wall. Hi Fencer. xo
August 18th, 2006 10:08
Um, that probably didn’t make sense, did it? You’re trying to figure out if existing shelves fit, right? I just put shelves up on the actual WALL - just eyeing them - and it took about 27 tries, with accompanying screw holes. ha! Lord. xo
August 18th, 2006 10:48
Kelly, you’re back (only in threat)! I’m so excited! I had to read your whole post out loud to Johanna. You see, the only way she’ll join blogdom is vicariously, through me reading HAH and your posts out loud to her. So… you must write, if for no other reason than to give me something to read to Johanna.
I’m sorry you’ve been a tad depressed. That sucks. I’ve been in the boat, or on the couch, or whatever with you, but I’ll mind my own business so that you can concentrate on your book. Love ya!
August 18th, 2006 11:35
Hi Jenns. I STILL have to answer your lovely letter, which I haven’t, a fact which I’m sure you’ve noticed, right? sigh. I’m sorry.
I’m SO glad to see Johanna enjoying mine and HAH’s blogs; is there any way to convince her to start her own? Any way at all? Threats? Threats of monkeys? Or cookies?
You’ve been depressed, too? Chaz? Oh… I know, honey. I KNOW. kiss xo
August 18th, 2006 12:07
I MISSED you Kelly. HUGS.
And yes, I was sick of the snail too…
I’ve had a very horrible day - my friend got dumped by my Beloved’s cousin and it’s all a bit close for comfort and I can’t believe they’re over but don’t want to give her false hope and I have exams and can’t be there for her and it’s just so SAD.
But Kelly’s back! Sorry you’ve been depressed petal. Mmmmmmwaaaaah! (that’s the sound of a kiss). Squish! (that’s the sound of a hug)
Bye!
August 18th, 2006 13:45
Clean and purty = Web2.0, so it’s all good.
Eye measuring happened today, it’ll be tapes and definite amounts on Monday, because it aint no fun having to move a library all on your lonesome and the movers don’t do reconfigurations, so if it doesn’t turn out right they don’t care.
August 18th, 2006 16:16
Hi Nines, my sweet. Were you sick of the green, too? I was sooo sick of the green.
I hate people breaking up, because I’ve only done it a bazillion and one times myself, and every time was heartbreaking. Most of those times was with one guy, though, but I’m not going to mention his name, lest he google himself and see it here.
Come to think, maybe I SHOULD tell him to go google himself…
I’m sorry to hear about your friend. Don’t you worry for yourself; there’s NO time for that. Exams! You’re going to do great, you know…
And you called me petal. sigh… kiss xo
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Fencer, I love the clean and purty look, too. Fresh, fresh, and relaxing to the eyeballs. Speaking of eyeballs, Jesse’s got The Hills Have Eyes on, right in the same room with me. Ugh.
I can’t believe they’re making you move the library by yourself! Where are you moving it to? Someplace outside of Dublin? kiss xo
August 18th, 2006 18:39
Ahoy there!
I haven’t forgotten you either. So, how are you Kelly? I think you’ve been a little depressed BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN MISSING US! Yes, that must be it!!
My mum was getting depressed, staying at home all the time and focussing ALL her energy on us (to my annoyance). So I pushed dad to push her into going for art classes. Since she started them 4 weeks ago, she is the most cheerful person I know!! With no time (lots of homework), and fun art classes where they are even taught the Maths, Physics & Biology behind art (I had no idea). They start painting in a couple weeks and she is so excited! Heh, she is the oldest person in the class with the rest of the students half her age. But she doesn’t care. She is having fun!! Just thought I’d share this with you.
How’s the book coming along? The new template is sweet (especially the stars) but it doesn’t represent your gaiety >_
August 18th, 2006 21:24
The green was overwhelming. As well as all the scads and scads of links down the side. One didn’t know where to start when one was getting to know Mrs. Kelly Lowe. This is much more refreshing. Clean. Simple. But I agree with Miss Engineer–it doesn’t seem like “you.” Perhaps because the only representation of “you” we have ever had is through the screen that we look at all the time. And that included lots of busyness. Maybe this is more the real “you,” and we have to just get used to it, darnit. (But I especially miss the “impractically imperfect in every way.” It just seemed so, so…perfect.)
You guys remember Colleen, right? Please pray–her mom has just been hospitalized with heart issues. They (Mark and Colleen) are making an emergency trip down there tomorrow. Pray that her mom pulls through okay.
And Miss Kelly, never mind all that stuff I said about your template. I really love it–especially the stars. And the title that makes you seem like a princess. What seems the most “you” about it–your blood really runs true-blue. How’s that for cheesy, eh? I hope this spell of depression lifts soon–melancholy is good for periodic reflection, but too much of it throws the system out of balance.
Love and kisses! xoxo
August 19th, 2006 05:28
Kanks! Hi sugar. Now that I’m back talking to you guys on a regular basis, I’ll be so bursting with good mental and emotional health that people will start calling me Dr. Kel, and the next time you see me I’ll be on Oprah.
Your mom is so SMART for taking those classes, as are you guys for making her… Some day I’ll do the same. I know occupying yourself with something you love is excellent therapy. Last night I let myself go into another dimension while listening to some music, and it was incredibly cathartic…
I hope you’re doing well, Aakanksy. School? Job? xo
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Taleny! I’ll definitely be thinking of Colleen, little thing…
You have NO idea (but you’re getting it) how much more this template is like me than the other one. I have a perky side, but I’m emphatically NOT a busy person. I’m more vanilla icecream mellow, with bubblegum bursts. But never fear: I’m going to add my “impractically imperfect in every way” asap; I miss it, too.
You’re so sweet for calling me true-blue. I’m sending YOU some drugs and apes, as well. And also, some money. kiss xo
August 19th, 2006 05:31
I may have exagerated when I said lonesome
For effect you know.
We have a team of movers in, but I’m the boss and get to go “no no no that’s not right at all.”
We’re only moving down the road, to a much bigger building, and slightly closer to home for me (5 minutes or so)
August 19th, 2006 07:30
Oh it cut my comment. Hello there!
I was saying…it doesn’t represent your gaeity because everytime I think of “Kelly”, I think VIBRANT! Like how you looked in the photo you shared a couple months ago!
But still, I find the stars so sweet. Did you do the template yourself?
Mum is really enjoying the classes and she always thanks me every time I talk to her *rolls eyes*. I am at school and as for work…let’s see.I’m applying for every suitable job on the planet, in every country.
August 19th, 2006 11:04
Oh! I love! it. So much! Have we ever had the “How kerri is obsessed with stars!” conversation? It really is lovely. And oh so clean!
I am sorry you have been feeling blue lately, Kellbell. Hang in there babe. And know that I am always here, just an email away. I have a phone, too. Let me know if you want the number. I get free long distance. : ) And I would love to hear your voice. : )
August 19th, 2006 22:35
Oooo. Apes AND money! How can I go wrong?
I am singing on the worship team for the first time tomorrow at our new church. (”New” meaning the one we have finally settled on since moving here in December.) I am both apprehensive and excited at the same time. I am sure you understand the reasons for both. Nervous at the commitment, scared it may become too much and I’ll have to reneg, and excited to once again be involved in a church and worship service. We’ll see how it goes…
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August 20th, 2006 21:48
I love your new look. Simple and sweet. Sometimes it is nice to do simple…it makes life less complicated…ya think?
I hope all is well, and that at the very least it is a GOOD book.
August 21st, 2006 13:20
Garden-variety grass = chives perhaps? I wouldn’t smoke them. But I suppose you could use one as a straw. To sip alcohol. To make for a good story to tell us. About grass.
But maybe you did this already.
August 21st, 2006 21:16
I have been sadly lacking in my book-reading lately. Shame on me. I’ve been too busy doing projects in and around the house. It’s summer I suppose. But shouldn’t I be sitting by a pool or at the beach with a book? Yes. Yes I should. Can you believe I haven’t been to the beach ONE TIME yet this summer!? Double sigh.