I get the irony. My eye happened to fall on the sentence in the final paragraph of my last post from several days ago (don’t worry, I rolled it around in my mouth to clean it off before putting it back); the sentence that proclaimed in big bold type that I’d be writing “tomorrow” because I still had “so much to say”. sigh. You guys, I need to give up the blog.
I was thinking, this morning, of when I first started blogging, and how desperately I needed to. I had just left church and wanted a place to work out my feelings about it. I needed a new community, since I’d suddenly found myself sans one. I was thinking, this morning, of how fresh and new everything felt, and of the friends I made right out of the box: Michelle, and David, and Twyla, and Jenn, and Chaz, and Margi, and Christine, and Jill, and Chouli, and Bilbo, and Kari, and Heather Anne… Little sticky strands went out over the world-wide web and I caught - and was caught by - some absolutely amazing people. We had fun in those early days, didn’t we, kids? We talked for hours.
And I was so happy when A. Scott joined in, and Aakanksha, and Forgotten Machine, and Fence and Nine Moons and Mal, and Anne and Karen and Cathy, and Kelly and Clare. Peefer finally put me on his blog roll! And Kerri Anne and Kassi, and my pre-blog friends Roddy and Kary and Steve and Lorraine and Jean, and my dad, and Scott’s mom. I was proud to salute Neil as our president, have enjoyed getting to know Talena, and felt sad when Jay Gatsby disappeared off the face of the earth. Hi Jennie! I think you’re really funny.
I’m privileged to have exchanged letters with most of you, behind scenes, and to know your real names, those of you who have aliases (your secret will die with me). Because of you I discovered Buffy Summers, and Jeff Buckley. I have a golden turkey trophy gazing down on me from the shelf above my desk. I have CDs and books and other tokens of friendship, sent by post, just for me. I’ve been encouraged and supported, and also twitted. You’ve kept me on my toes, for sure. I will sincerely miss you all, and will pop over to your blogs to see how you’re doing occasionally. But I’m starting school tomorrow, and am in the process of setting up Jesse’s room - since he’ll be moving to Oregon soon - as an art studio (I’m bursting with ideas) and besides, I’ve only just started the third season of Six Feet Under. There simply isn’t enough time in the world.
I’ll still think of you, though. I always do. And I won’t unpublish my blog, because I might be back sometime, and also, it’s impossible to give you up completely. So, peace, friends. I’ll see you in the comment sections, our little version of the water cooler. kiss! xo
January 8th, 2007 19:23
when you are in the neighborhood shout and drop in. Love you and hope to see you in my comment section. I will be praying strength for you as you go to school. I remember what it was like going back at 39 (which will another 10 years for you). I will continue to send packages and now I am making packages for Asia and Cathy too.
I am the first on the kinda last. Bye now
January 8th, 2007 20:36
Kelly,
I am so proud of the brave you - going to school. I wish I were brave enough to do the same. I so totally understand where you are coming from, the church thing, the blog, the new friends, the neediness and then the growth and the good busy-ness that comes as a result. I will miss your cheery blogs; I will miss the laughter, but I will rejoice because you have found your wings. Fly high my friend, and please stop by my blog now and then and let me know you are still alive.
Blessings as you journey!
xoxox
January 8th, 2007 22:51
Oh Kell’s Bells… really? I can understand. But I’m just a teeny tiny bit sad. Okay. I’m more than a teeny tiny bit sad.
You’ve inspired me and made me laugh. And so I’m thankful. Glad to have been part of the phenomenom that is/was Kelly Well.
Really, I’m just terribly disappointed to have never seen the paper mache bookcase.
But at least I managed to fenaggle (how in the world is that word spelled?) a package out of Rod.
I’ll miss you Kel. Don’t be a stranger.
January 8th, 2007 23:33
I used to be sad when my friends went and ended their blogs, but now, having done it myself, I can say wholeheartedly: Congratulations. Welcome to the club.
I’ve been meaning to email you and sometimes I think I’ll just call you but I know you wouldn’t answer. You have been a great friend and I hope that this won’t mean goodbye. But if it does, then I would like to say thank you for being who you are and for being so witty (I really do mean it!). Good luck in school. Besos.
January 9th, 2007 04:44
Awwwww.
You’d better be commenting all over the shop!
January 9th, 2007 07:59
Surely a landmark in the painful death of the blogosphere? You’re way too good for it, Kellikins. Good call!
Don’t intimidate any of the callow keyboardists with your super typing now…
January 9th, 2007 08:52
I wish you the best. I’m glad to know you, and I hope to see you around as often as possible. You’re one of the good ones.
Hello, Kelly.
January 9th, 2007 09:10
:(
Not had the baby blues this time but now I have the blogger blues. I’ll miss you but maybe it’s easier as you have been MIA for a while now really (oh boo hoo, woe is me!!!)
Sounds like you have all kinds of exciting things lined up to fill your days with, don’t forget to make time to eat chocolate, as that is VERY important. Look me up if you ever return to the old country
xxxx
January 9th, 2007 09:28
Oh no! But I just discovered your blog!
It sounds like you have lots to do, though. Good luck with everything!
January 9th, 2007 11:20
:) I love you, kid.
January 9th, 2007 13:19
Welly Kelly,
It’s been swelly,
But alas
Time did telly,
You’ve tolled the belly,
And the tree did you felly.
I wish you welly,
Kelly Welly.
January 9th, 2007 15:37
Hiya, just wanted to say, been reading this blog for f***ing years and it’s the best f***ing thing on the internet. I really was Keyser Sose, you know? They just changed it. Spacey pulled some strings. They shafted me. But Kells, now I will just have to read through all your old postings and dream about the good old days. And pretend Nicole Kidman and Drew Barrymore and all that lot are you when I’m acting with them. Jaysis. Call my agent.
January 10th, 2007 05:37
I’m still around even though I don’t comment 20 times a night over here and don’t get ordered to go to bed.
I know you’ll be following me closely with the New Adventure that is coming up. I’ll keep my eye on you, Kelle Belle.
Although with you taking a break-of-sorts, my kisses and hugs stock might fall below the RDI (Recommended Dietary Intake) level.
All the best with school!
January 10th, 2007 05:38
I had to say this…
“Good on ya, mate!”
January 10th, 2007 15:37
Hey, Sweetie — I will really miss being able to “pop in” on your current thoughts; but at the same time know somewhat the pull you have inside you. You are a very talented lady and I wish and pray for you to continue answering the tug. Love you and yours, Foo
January 11th, 2007 13:25
I’ll miss you. I’m going to go right ahead and assume that in a few months your life will allow you to fit blogging in again, just like I hope mine will. I hope going back to school is great for you honey!
Stay in touch. xxx NM
January 13th, 2007 14:36
Have fun at school! I’ll miss your posts. I love how your mind works & your writing style. You have such a great sense of humor. I’ll leave you on my RSS feed…just in case you decide to stop in & let us all know how class is going.
I wish you the best!
January 13th, 2007 15:33
Oh, Kelly, how I will miss you, but I understand, too–I have often felt sad that my blogging time has taken up time I could have been creating art, which is why all I mostly do now is post on my own, and pop over to my friends’ blogs once a week, or so.
If I ever am in your neck of the woods, though, you know I’m tracking you down. You still have time for coffee, right?
I am so thankful for you, because I’ve met some pretty amazing people through your blog. And because I just love your outlook on life. And I wish I could know you for real.
Love, hugs, and kisses. All the best in school.
January 29th, 2007 15:22
I just wanted to say: you are quite amazing, friend, and while I will miss you, I sort of don’t have to, you know? I do and will continue to think of you often, and I know that someday I’ll get to see your eyes shine as we talk about everything, and nothing, until you successfully convince me to start watching “Angel.” (If I haven’t already. Ahem.) Love you, and hugs, too.
February 5th, 2007 16:05
hello Kelly………….
I really didn’t read too much
forgive????
I am moving to Raleigh
and am in mad passionate love with someone I met from there………..
If you ever talk about mad passionate love again…please let me know..because…when all was dead…love was awakened after 18 years of DEAD. I miss you….and love you….and am so very happy right now. I will not be taking my dogs with me…which I am really having a time with right now….but all is well…..all is well…..and you will always be someone I care about…..and love deeply…….
Love,
karen quirk……soon to be Karen O’Halloran……is that Irish enough for you???? hehehehehehe
February 7th, 2007 19:13
What a fabulous act of daring to quit something that has been so much a part of you!I have been a casual and inconsistant visitor to your blog, but I am sad to see you go. Good luck to you!
May 4th, 2007 15:06
Oh Kelly, long time no see. Ive been very self preoccupied for so long. Haven’t caught up wiht your blog for a long time but see your finishing.
Glad you look back fondly on your early blogging days. I have been pretty lame at blogging lately due to complete nervous breakdown/ outrageous rebellious behaviour!
Trying to get back to normal now. Wish you all the best
Love Kell xx