I get the irony. My eye happened to fall on the sentence in the final paragraph of my last post from several days ago (don’t worry, I rolled it around in my mouth to clean it off before putting it back); the sentence that proclaimed in big bold type that I’d be writing “tomorrow” because I still had “so much to say”. sigh. You guys, I need to give up the blog.

I was thinking, this morning, of when I first started blogging, and how desperately I needed to. I had just left church and wanted a place to work out my feelings about it. I needed a new community, since I’d suddenly found myself sans one. I was thinking, this morning, of how fresh and new everything felt, and of the friends I made right out of the box: Michelle, and David, and Twyla, and Jenn, and Chaz, and Margi, and Christine, and Jill, and Chouli, and Bilbo, and Kari, and Heather Anne… Little sticky strands went out over the world-wide web and I caught - and was caught by - some absolutely amazing people. We had fun in those early days, didn’t we, kids? We talked for hours.

And I was so happy when A. Scott joined in, and Aakanksha, and Forgotten Machine, and Fence and Nine Moons and Mal, and Anne and Karen and Cathy, and Kelly and Clare. Peefer finally put me on his blog roll! And Kerri Anne and Kassi, and my pre-blog friends Roddy and Kary and Steve and Lorraine and Jean, and my dad, and Scott’s mom. I was proud to salute Neil as our president, have enjoyed getting to know Talena, and felt sad when Jay Gatsby disappeared off the face of the earth. Hi Jennie! I think you’re really funny.

I’m privileged to have exchanged letters with most of you, behind scenes, and to know your real names, those of you who have aliases (your secret will die with me). Because of you I discovered Buffy Summers, and Jeff Buckley. I have a golden turkey trophy gazing down on me from the shelf above my desk. I have CDs and books and other tokens of friendship, sent by post, just for me. I’ve been encouraged and supported, and also twitted. You’ve kept me on my toes, for sure. I will sincerely miss you all, and will pop over to your blogs to see how you’re doing occasionally. But I’m starting school tomorrow, and am in the process of setting up Jesse’s room - since he’ll be moving to Oregon soon - as an art studio (I’m bursting with ideas) and besides, I’ve only just started the third season of Six Feet Under. There simply isn’t enough time in the world.

I’ll still think of you, though. I always do. And I won’t unpublish my blog, because I might be back sometime, and also, it’s impossible to give you up completely. So, peace, friends. I’ll see you in the comment sections, our little version of the water cooler. kiss! xo